Accentuate the Positive

You know that grumpy troll/sneaky bad faerie/negative nancy voice that everyone has? The one that stops you from taking leaps of faith {he's sure you won't make it, and not only will you fall splat on the ground, but you'll do it in an extremely unattractive way}. The one that says "Yeah BUT", the one that convinces you that the safe way is the only way there is?

Well I am really really REALLY sick of that voice. That voice needs a good swift kick in the pants and he is certainly a little too big for his britches. It's time for a showdown.

We all have our doubts about our own abilities and we all have moments of fear. Am I good enough? Should I follow this mysterious path or stay on the well lit road? Do I really deserve to be successful and happy?
The answer is an unequivocal yes, but sometimes the troll's voice wins merely because it is so much louder than that other voice. The quiet, sure one. The one that says we can be anything we want to be. The one that is ready to climb mountains, take that scary road and do it with style. The one with the courage to make her dreams come true.

So here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to make a concerted effort to accentuate the positive. Everytime the troll says, "You can't survive, you have no money, go get a real job."
I'll say, "I am surviving. And I may be low on funds right now, but I still have a roof, food, a new computer, and a reservation for the writer's conference. Not to mention the support of my family and friends. So it can't be that bad."

And when the troll says, "You aren't good enough. You're asking for rejection. Go flip burgers instead. You aren't a writer."
I'll say, "I want to write. I love to write. I am writing. So I AM a writer. I am getting better and learning more everyday, and if one publisher doesnt like my work, it doesnt mean I wont find another down the road. I'm not afraid of a little rejection." {thats a hard one-I'll need practice-A LOT-I'm sure lol}

And so on and so forth-from my hips to my family to my writing. I will no longer let that scared little posturing troll affect my life or my decisions. I am just as stubborn-and for every no from him I have a yes to combat it. Eventually he'll just go away and pester someone who'll actually pay attention to him. I won't give him anymore satisfaction.

Hear that you irritating bugger? :}